Love Affair

this niggas so fly, first day we met we got high
so fkn sexy, looking in his eyes
it was a surprise ..when he pulled me close & kissed me
1 thing led to another so quickly
but i wasnt ready, tho he was i wasnt
i couldnt do it -- i liked him to much to let shit get ruined
he undid my pants i said baby please wait
in my mind, i could only debate
after this will he love me, or love it
will he love us , or jus say fkc it
that was it so i fibbed .. i didnt want to
but i did, he didnt believe at first but i convinced
convinced him i haven't done it before & that it would
have been my first time, he smiled & said "its ight"
we ended up walking around his block, around his spot
introduced me to his friends -chilled laughed
& that was the end, went home ..online
he was online, he messaged me
but something didnt seem right, something didnt feel right
he said to me, i know you lied but you didnt have to
i said i know but it was the only way to get through
get through to you, that i wasnt ready it was to quick
& that he was only thinkin with his dick, & i was afraid he would split
he admitted, that if i let my feelings get a best of me that day
we would have ended, & wouldnt have been what we are today
so my debation, my contemplation, my worries & fuss
all turned out to be true, glad my feelings didnt make me give it up