i havent been normal lately

i hate those moments right before you sleep when you are forced to think about all the things you try so hard to forget. Lord, I can’t sleep. Please sing me a lullaby, just for now. I love you. Thank you. Goodnight again.

struggling

you know when you’re about to cry

but you’re trying so hard to hold the tears back

and then you get that feeling in your throat, like you cant breathe

theres just a big hard ball of SOMETHING .

I hate that feeling :/

him her

I know that we’re taking chances,
You told me life was a risk,
I just have one last question;
Will it be my heart
Or will it be his Hers?

lemme see ya package

i'd soo do this, i find it sexy undressing your man with
nun but your mouth

me, myself then you

The wonderful thing about falling in love is that you learn everything about that person so quickly. And if it's true love, then you start to see yourself through their eyes and it brings out the best in you. It's almost like you are falling in love with yourself.

That's all

I don’t expect you to text me 24/7. I don’t expect you to call me everyday. I don’t expect you to put me in front of your boys. I don’t expect you to ditch all your girl best friends for me. I don’t expect you to surprise me with roses. I don’t expect you to buy me the world on my birthday. I don’t expect you to always agree with what I say. I don’t expect you to pay for everything. I don’t expect you to go out of your way and buy all the things that I mention I wanted. I don’t expect you to put me over your family. I don’t expect you to brag about me to all your friends. I don’t expect you to keep all your promises. I don’t expect you to believe I’m the best girlfriend in the whole world. I don’t expect you to stop checking out other girls. I don’t expect you to never mention a hot girl in front of me. I don’t expect you to already know what I want. I don’t expect you to never be mad at me. I just expect you to be trustworthy, to trust me, to never take me for granted like I won’t take you for granted, to always be real with me, to keep equality between us, and to love me. That’s all.

100% true

ROCHELLE RENEE EVANS.

I believe in manicures, I believe in overdressing, I believe that making love is the best calorie burner, I believe in kissing all the time, I believe in forever, I believe that tomorrow is another day and anything is possible, I believe that the happiest girls tend to be the prettiest, I believe in dumb bitches who need to get their teeth knocked out, I believe there is always hope, I believe in life you need itelligence to get any where & I believe in me, myself & I.

ROCHELLE RENEE EVANS.

Mary Jane

dont ask, jus touch, dont tell, keep it on the hush ..so what if me & your man smoke kush that dont mean were fkn blunt between our lips cus were makin "super" lovin, & i cant promise you nun once were sky high. bye

By your side

I take. I don't ask for Nothin. You fake. I look past your frontin. For cash Im a gluten. Im a bad influence yo. have ur marriage ruined by hangin wit me you'll Get ass from some new chicks

I Should Have Left When I Had The Chance

Im Lost, And I Dont Want To Be Found,
Maybe It's Best This Way, Who Knows.
I Ask Questions I Never Wanna Know The Answer To
Its How I Am, I Cant And Wont Change it

♥

a - z

A - Available: No
B - Best Friend: Me, myself & class
C - Cuntlicker? - No
D - Dad’s Name: Ray
E - Easiest People To Talk To: Asia, Alize, Redz
F - Favorite Food: everything, ima fatty
G - Gummy Bears Or Worms: Bears
H - Hometown: Brooklyn, Newyork
I - Instrument: My body
J - Job: Guess ..the store guess not telling you to guess lol
K - Kids: 1
L - Longest Car Ride: Buffolo
M - Milk Flavor: is gross
N - Number Of Siblings: 6
O - One Wish: Turn back the hands of time.
P - Phobias: washing glass cups
Q - Favorite Quote: dont control your life, jus live, try new things
R -Reason To Smile: My mama, family, & him
S - Song You Last Heard: Ready to make love- Trey songz
T - Time You Woke Up: 10am-ish
U - Unknown Fact About Me: its unknown for a reason.
V - Vegetable: Spinach
W - Worst Habits: Not being organized
X - X-Rays You’ve Had: none
Y - Your Favorite Pastime: Shopping
Z - Zodiac Sign: Pisces

Dear summer

Dear summer, summer breeze. Summer please know I live for ya. Throw on the wifebeater, let back the lid for ya. A few years I prolly hear from ya, but now I'm here for ya. I know niggas that'll shed a tear for ya behind bars tryna get to ya.

Trust

It’s an ability we slowly lose.
No matter who you are.
Someone has broken your trust.
Tampering with what was given to you as a whole.

lxve

sometimes you gotta runaway so you can see who will run after you. sometimes you gotta talk quieter jus to see who's listening. sometimes you gotta step up in a fight jus to see who's standin by your side. sometimes you gotta make a wrong decision to see who's there to fix it. sometimes you gotta let go of the 1 you lo...ve jus to see if they love you enough to come back.

februarytwentieth

the most beautiful thing he ever said to me
was "uoy evol i"
& free of doubt i can truely say "oot uoy evol i"

Love debation

he says i love you, then you say it back
but the question is what does love really mean?
soo thoughts of him only wanting sex occurs so you say
he has to wait if he really loves you, he says if you love him there should be no problem, but if he loves you why cant he wait till your ready, but he says if you love him what are you waiting to be ready for, and she says to be sure that you can wait & thats not all you want but if she isnt sure then why is she with you and if you feel you need to wait till your ready with the one you love, then how do you love him, or if you need to question if your ready then that means theres no trust, & if theres no trust
how do you love him?

indulge

you told me anything I need just ask you now it seem you only do what you have to.
Even shit u had to do son what had you or Have you done?
"Don't sell me dreams & Illusions" It seems like u only do
what you supposed to but I dont know you.
Don't try to judge me budge me or get closed to my innermost.
annualized this don't get blinded I gotta see through the disguises

against all odds

give me a little corner of your heart
& i will open mine as well.
to become one with each other
we must live as if
a tragedy is happening to us.
i can blame others or i can blame myself
terrified, i can recoil from an outstretched hand
or i can take it and face my fear.
knowledge is a gift we must give ourselves
before it is too late.
i thank God for those who have come before
and told their stories, shared their lives.
openness to communication is a two-way street
we must listen for there are those willing to give
if each of us knew what was in for us
would we have the same courage, the beauty
of spirit, the strength to be vulnerable?
i hope so.

misunderstood

these eyes tell a story - untold to those who don't understand but true to those who can see the truth that lies deeper than eyesight; far inside the soul of the one who smiles despite the pain ..

I made you think i was the one, i always knew i'd break your heart

no matter what ..

Love me before anybody
Love hard when I'm with somebody *

you had me at hello

faithful, hidden communication, dark relations like love we making. keep things mysterious, cus the mystery takes a lead
into making these people believe what they can believe
not know, not see, but what we make it out to be
nobody knows your the only one i want, feeling deep
like our heart beats for one another, the right beat
trust, no matter what happens,
our friendship is more than what i imagined. -t.r/3

wtf is patience when my heart is racing

"Truth's got me against the ropes, semi-conscious with no boxing skills."

& ill never win.

re-sent-ment

"Resentment is like taking poison
& hoping the other person dies."

dear heaven,

I shouldn't love you the way that I do.. If I could tell you just once how I felt, then you would know that in itself is enough to make the ice on your heart melt.. So, my love for you is taboo & it's the sweetest. How can I feel as I do? I'm lost in someone that's an image of you..

Lmfao

"Why do I need to know this?"

1. Make a claim.
2. Support that.
3. Warrant that.

If you can’t warrant what you’re saying, shut the fuck up.It's always so intriguing to look at things that were once so beloved and wonder how the fkc you ever loved them

will life ever be sain again

I hate that some nights when I lay down to go to sleep, I can’t coax my mind into slowing down even just enough for me to fall asleep. Running, running, always running .When I say beautiful things, I’m not necessarily living them; when I live them, the beautiful thing is that words aren’t necessary.
~

well,

You tell me where to go and though I might leave to find it, I’ll never let your head hit the bed without my hand behind it
"I reach the end and hit rewind."
_____________________________-- Again, & again, & again

secret #12

Its okay to be lonely sometimes, i've learned so much by being lonely.I had become, with the approach of night, once more aware of loneliness & time - those two companions without whom no journey can yield us anything

Ctrl + Alt+ Life

"Birds scream at the top of their lungs in horrified hellish rage every morning at daybreak to warn us all of the truth, but sadly we don’t speak bird."

sometimes words dont work

& if I did have a choice, I’d never want to live forever, just let me have a voice so I can make my points, I can’t imagine running a race with no finish line, just let me keep my pace & make to most of my time, I love giving but I’m bad at receiving, the truth is, I’d prefer to be the one bleeding, but I’m a paranoid that stays between play and work, cautious and aware, ‘cause I’m afraid of being hurt, which brings me to the issue, and that would be this: how often must I ask myself why I exist? I feel like a freak, this world is a circus, just trying to find myself as well as my purpose.

It's as simple as ..

Mind

________

Matter

^^^
its as simple as, Mind Over Matter
those who matter don't mind
& those who mind don't matter

Love = Lame

"I'm shook; I know, I pushed when I should've pulled.. Took it all back if I could, I put that on my soul. & I would make a top-notch good listener if you could block off a little time out to give it here. Since we went our separate paths, I've hit a couple snags that remind me of the past. I can't front, I'm havin' a blast..but, damned if I ain't afraid of how long it's gonna last. Sittin' here, wishin' we could kick it.. Give me your opinions, I do miss the criticisms. I didn't mean to be distant; make a visit. I'll wait up & keep the coffee brewin' in the kitchen..but, who am I jokin' with? There's no way that you & I will ever get to re-open it. It doesn't matter, this is more than love..& maybe if I'm lucky

Unfortunately

My nerves are like piano strings, the world just pounding out some crazy bullshit, waiting for the reverb.since you're gone, all I can do is try to repay you.. Giving someone priceless & immortal love.. The kind that sends your soul flying through the heavens-that I received from you,now my life has a purpose.."

I wish I knew what to say..

Hush

"..'cause we keep it on thee,
'cause we keep it on thee.."

Numb

everything is still, nothing can move
like im through with everything in view
lonely, no one to hold me, own me
can you feel the pain im with deep down below me
i wanna cry ..SCREAM but can anybody hear me?
subliminal messages for my pain can you see?
it isn't normal to me, that my insides are cold
like my heart has lies breathing on it there's
nothing else to be told i've been through it before
love is now disclosed & i jus don't wanna know ...
i cant feel it, i hear it, see it, touch it
more tears to come
I'm Numb